Guest Blog and Photo By Elaine Ramos
“I know I 100% percent belong here,” Billy David, the chairman of the Oregon Gaming Regulatory Commission, said to my Alternative Break group. This sense of belonging is something I crave. As I grow up in this culturally intricate and diverse world it’s hard to balance exactly where I fit. Be it racially, generationally or religiously I haven’t quite figured it out. Obviously placing myself where I fit within labels isn’t entirely helpful, but to my logic orientated brain doesn’t that make sense? Categorize yourself and then jump in line and that’s where I fit, right? But in the melting pot of America I must reach beyond those labels to find what feels like home, where I belong.
The definition of community I think of – a group of people living together in one place and/or sharing a religion, race, profession, or other particular characteristic – doesn’t express what I witnessed in southeastern Oregon. The communities I met with were smaller than the University of Oregon student population, never mind all of Eugene, and always looked out for their fellow members. The warmth of the groups I met struck me immediately. Having transferred to the U.O. from Southern Oregon University this year, finding my place in the overwhelming population of Eugene has been a struggle. How do I cultivate the warmth I witnessed at home in a city of 150,000?
“Go with a good heart,” Taylor David, the Public Information Director for the Klamath Tribes, repeated over and over during our tour. It is with every person I meet that I must strive to let go of preconceptions I hold and instead listen and let them reveal to me who they are. “Go with a good heart.” I must share the warmth I witnessed with others. “Go with a good heart” Now that I have a community that I can lean on, I hope to spread the warmth I’ve received and give to others. At the close of our time with the tribes we learned the word “howinna” which means “I have changed and from this experience I have grown more than I can ever express.” Howinna.
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